Crisis Mode

, originally uploaded by free admission.

Well sort of. I’m fine, everything is going along just fine.

I am just stuck and confused.

The thing that I have identified myself with for all of these years is maybe the thing that I don’t want to do anymore and I don’t know where to go or what to do next.

Destination is still indeed Toronto but I am not sure I want to be a photographer anymore.

It IS what I do and who I am but truly I have not actually made money from selling my photos just the skills I have built to produce photos and make them look good or process film. I have made money through what I guess you would call the back door.

Is it fear or an actual turning point in my life.

What do you do? I’m a photographer. I have said this for as long as I can remember.

I have always wanted to do camera work. You know film things.

This is what I will pursue next and we’ll see what happens.

I would LOVE it to be an Organic Natural experience to ease the confusion of where my head is at right now but who knows how the universe will deliver this next step.

Hold on… It maybe a bit bumpy or maybe first class all the way.

Who knows but I’m damn sure I’m going to try.

Day 235 February 17, 2010